Why I'm leaving everything I know to move to Argentina

Why are you going? What are you looking for?

So… I’m leaving the country again on Saturday.

Where? Argentina.

But really? Into the unknown.

My dad asked me that question the other day…

He didn’t ask this to undermine me or try to convince me not to go, but he was genuinely curious.

Hmm…

I had obviously thought about this… I didn’t just wake up one day and decide to pull the trigger.

And TBH, it’s not the easiest thing to leave your family, friends, and everything you know behind and get on a one-way ticket to the opposite side of the globe.

But… it really got me thinking.

And truthfully, even though it’s uncomfortable, there’s some sort of inner knowingness that it’s the right thing for me to do.

Here’s the thing. We all have two I’s.

An inner I. And our outer I.

The outer I is the things we hold true about ourselves. “I am Mau. I am a writer. I am a student. I am a BEERP”

Yeah. A berp. AKA fill in the blank with whatever the hell you think you are.

And then, there’s your inner I.

Your inner I is like the deepest part of you that doesn’t identify with anything on the 3-dimensional plane.

It’s your “gut”. The thing that is guiding you.

The thing that knows.

It’s the thing that defies all logic and reasoning.

It’s the thing that wants to come out… but gets blocked by your outer I –

Which has been programmed by society, your environment, and your circumstances.

Your inner I is who you are when you strip away everything you’re not.

The thing is, it’s hard to know what you’re not.

Your whole life you’ve been told what you are.

By your parents. Your teachers. Society. Other people. What you “should be...”

Breaking this identity can be hard. It’s like coming out to the world about who you really are.

And for most people… it’s easier to not.

It's easier to keep identifying with the outer I. To follow the path that was laid out for you. To behave how you’re supposed to behave.

This is the path of least resistance.

And the other day, I heard the man Tony Robbins say something on a podcast that stood out to me:

POOM. That shit hit. I had to stop the podcast right there and write it down.

A profound statement.

Why are so many people unhappy?

Why are so many people depressed?

Why are so many people wandering around with no purpose?

And I think the answer lies in the juxtaposition of these two ideas I’m presenting…

IT’S NOT EASY TO FOLLOW YOUR INNER I.

TO GO AGAINST EVERYTHING YOU KNOW.

TO BREAK THE PROGRAMMING AND CONDITIONINGS OF YOUR MIND…

Which is why most people don’t.

There is resistance. There is confusion. There is the requisite to have complete and utter trust in YOU.

And yet, the very act of not following this resistance, of not diving head FIRST into the uncomfortable, of not TRUSTING that you KNOW what is best for your higher calling…

Keeps you wandering, sad, and miserable.

Sure, it feels good momentarily to stay on the path of least resistance.

It feels good to not have to think… to put yourself in uncomfortable situations…

But if you STAY on that path… YOU WILL NEVER FIND HAPPINESS.

And that my friends…

That is why I’m going.

Because it feels uncomfortable. Because being in new environments allows me to tap into a deeper part of myself. Because deep down, I know it’s what I need to evolve.

I don’t travel for ra-ra.

I travel to go within. To discover myself…

To immerse myself in ME – without the pressure from anyone I know.

So, I guess all I’m saying here is, listen.

Listen to yourself. Listen to your gut. Listen to the resistance.

Through is where you find the gold.

Namaste, bitches.

Mau